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  I am definitely having some jitters about leaving my job. I am so excited for the freedom, but a part of me is really going to miss my apartment and New York. Living here has been such a dream. This is the first apartment I have truly loved and felt like home in. I love the beat and pulse of New York City (what a cliche, right?). But I am so heartbroken at having to leave my apartment. I even thought about renegotiating my contract with my current job and went through the entire process of creating a plan to possibly stay in my current position. But a part of me knows that is not the right step. Sure, I'll get to stay in my apartment and continue my life here, but there is no growth in that. I have to accept the fact that I am stagnant in this job and there will be no opportunities to grow as both a professional and a person. This job is suffocating me and I am unable to live my life because of it. Hell, I haven't even gone on a date in over 5 years. I don't even look pre...
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I Quit My Full-Time Job as a Pediatrician

 

I did it. I officially submitted my resignation letter. It feels like the chokehold has lifted. I feel free and liberated. 

I hope that I am making the right decision. There was so much uncertainty in this decision and I kept going back and forth this entire week. In fact, on Wednesday morning I was about to just throw in the towel and stay. But then this looming feeling started to take over....would this be my life for the next 30+ years? 

I've been listening to so many podcasts about doctors who left full-time clinical medicine, some to pursue non-clinical avenues and others to do locums. They all talked about taking a leap of faith and how scary it was in that moment. These are new uncharted waters but I have to take the plunge to save myself. The past 5 years of my life have definitely been the worst of my life. My mental and physical health have also struggled so much since I graduated residency and became an attending physician. I have gained over 50 pounds, developed a binge eating disorder, my hair has been thinning and breaking so easily because of stress, my skin is a mess, I have daily headaches, I've developed an anxiety disorder, and I am not nurturing my relationships as well as I want to be. I feel like I have become a shell of person, just living to work and not working to live.  I go on vacations, but all I think about is work. I don't find joy in daily living anymore. I have had many dark thoughts and contemplated if life was even worth it anymore. For health reasons alone, I must quit and move on to find a career path that brings me joy and allows me to live life on my own terms.

My parents are beyond thrilled that I am returning home. They have been struggling so much the past few years with their own issues and I am so glad I can provide them with a small sliver of happiness during these bleak times. As they are aging, I want to be able to spend time with them and travel with them. Life is short, and our time here on Earth is limited. Nurturing meaningful relationships that bring you happiness and joy is what life is about. We are even talking about doing a 3-week trip to India in early January to see my 91-year old grandfather and explore India. And for the first time, I can plan my life around my job! This is such a special gift that God has given me, and I thank him everyday for shining a light on this path and giving me strength to start life afresh.

This year has been a big year for me. So many changes. So many major life decisions. I am happy with the way this year has turned out, but I have bigger plans for 2025. In the next blog post, I hope to cover some of these goals and aspirations for 2025. Cheers! 

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