My Hopes For 2025

 

I am definitely having some jitters about leaving my job. I am so excited for the freedom, but a part of me is really going to miss my apartment and New York. Living here has been such a dream. This is the first apartment I have truly loved and felt like home in. I love the beat and pulse of New York City (what a cliche, right?). But I am so heartbroken at having to leave my apartment. I even thought about renegotiating my contract with my current job and went through the entire process of creating a plan to possibly stay in my current position. But a part of me knows that is not the right step. Sure, I'll get to stay in my apartment and continue my life here, but there is no growth in that. I have to accept the fact that I am stagnant in this job and there will be no opportunities to grow as both a professional and a person. This job is suffocating me and I am unable to live my life because of it. Hell, I haven't even gone on a date in over 5 years. I don't even look presentable. I can't even take care of myself because I'm too busy taking care of this job and the patients. And that is just not okay. I cannot have this be the rest of my life for another 20, 30, 40 years. And if I don't exit now, it's only going to get harder. 

So I thought today I would create a list of the positives. A list of the things I am looking forward to in 2025. A list of the ways I hope to grow as a person and as a doctor. 

1. I get to spend all of the holidays with my family (Thanksgiving, Christmas, AND New Years)
2. I get to spend unlimited time with my parents who truly unconditionally love me
3. I can travel as much as I want to
4. I get to explore new cities, towns, and states 
5. I have the ability to explore other interests such as website design, content creation, solo travel
6. I will be saving so much more money and can make smart investments to protect my financial future
7. I can create a work schedule around my life, and not the other way around 
8. I get to break free and try being a self-employed physician
9. I get to have a home office space and decorate it the way I want
10. I'm not restricted to dating in one city or state anymore
11. I will finally be able to nurture and take care of myself - both physically and mentally