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  I am definitely having some jitters about leaving my job. I am so excited for the freedom, but a part of me is really going to miss my apartment and New York. Living here has been such a dream. This is the first apartment I have truly loved and felt like home in. I love the beat and pulse of New York City (what a cliche, right?). But I am so heartbroken at having to leave my apartment. I even thought about renegotiating my contract with my current job and went through the entire process of creating a plan to possibly stay in my current position. But a part of me knows that is not the right step. Sure, I'll get to stay in my apartment and continue my life here, but there is no growth in that. I have to accept the fact that I am stagnant in this job and there will be no opportunities to grow as both a professional and a person. This job is suffocating me and I am unable to live my life because of it. Hell, I haven't even gone on a date in over 5 years. I don't even look pre...
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Reasons to Recover



Good Monday morning! It's the first day in my clean eating resolve and I could not be more excited. I feel good about this one. Mostly because I'm not restricting any foods or trying to "diet", but just trying a new lifestyle focused on eating clean, wholesome foods. 

I wanted to post this for 2 reasons. One because last night I had my last binge meal for (hopefully!) the next few months. I had a chicken burrito along with chips & queso from Chipotle. I ate it at 10pm in my bed while watching Netflix on my phone. I felt SO sick after eating it but yet I force-fed myself thanks to my lovely binge eating disorder. I woke up 2 or 3 times last night with reflux -- yes, actual acid reflux -- coughing and choking from the horrible sensation. I didn't get much restful sleep after 4am. I woke up at 6am feeling sick to my stomach and nauseous. 
That gets into my second reason for this post -- I never want to feel that way again. That's a horrible feeling and sensation to have, especially first thing in the morning. It makes you feel so gross, sick, unhealthy, and just flat out disgusting. 

Listening to my new favorite podcast - Brain Over Binge - I got inspired to write a list of reasons to recover. It's a work in progress and as I think of more reasons, this list will keep growing but here are my top reasons for wanting to stop this vicious, horrible, unhealthy cycle and become a healthier, happier person.


  1. To have more energy and not feel so sluggish all the time
  2. So that I don't feel heavy, full, and bloated right after binging and when I wake up in the morning
  3. So I stop having reflux, throat pain, and belly pain after eating
  4. So that one day I can get on the scale and feel proud that I don't weigh 200 pounds anymore!
  5. So I'm not ashamed or scared to go to the doctor's office anymore
  6. To be able to wear a regular women's size and not shop exclusively in the plus size section
  7. So I'm not ashamed to go on first dates 
  8. So I'm not ashamed to wear a swimsuit or wear summer clothes
  9. So I can wear dresses and feel confident
  10. To clear up the acne on my face from eating too much fried food
  11. Lower my blood pressure
  12. To be a role model for my patients and their families
  13. So I don't spend all of my 30s having low self-esteem and confidence issues
  14. So I can be a new, happier, healthier person when (if!) I move back to New York
  15. So I can go on vacation with friends and keep up with them/not get winded easily
  16. So I'm not afraid to try new experiences and adventures
  17. So my friends and family don't complain about my snoring anymore
  18. To prevent diseases like heart disease, diabetes, arthritis, gallbladder disease
  19. Save money so I can use it for things like clothes and homeware hauls
  20. So I can have a healthy family one day
  21. To be a mom and carry a baby without obesity-related complications
  22. No more stretchmarks

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